Another Snowflake of the Universe

Tender is the love I feel today
Plans lay crumpled on a page
A New Year, a bookmarked stage
I've got less and less to say
I'm avoiding everyone like the plague
I'm tired of feeling so sickly
Effort, a costly accessory, like money
What's another metaphor? Another simile?
The quarter of my life
An unimpressive slight
I'm hoarding so many things
A rhythm of loss sets in
But I don't know what I've lost
Randomness has a pattern
A snowflake of the universe, you best believe
Obedience is not a measure of goodness, only ease
I wonder if their heart aches
Ones who follow all the rules
And end up with broken hearts still
Discovering a cancer, no smoking, no weed
No alcohol or substances
But the cancer still found a feast
Is this the pain they were talking of
Are there ways to make this stop
Newer words, older rhyme
A rhythm to let this feeling shine
Words falling into place
The waste of a page
A beauty has come of it
Rose coloured glasses off
Slipped the convenience of eating meat
I ease into another year
I promise myself some softness this once
Here slips another trip around the sun
And I let it
For the first time, I let it slip